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Day Three

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 13:02:24 GMT

Woke up around 4 AM. Stayed in bed till 5:45 AM, unsure if I fell asleep again. Woke up very hungry, needing to use the restroom and with an uncomfortable stomach. Opened a bottle of water, ate some crackers. I didn't take lunesta last night as it seems to have no effect.

Day Two

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 13:02:53 GMT

I woke up at 4 AM. I tried to fall back asleep, but failed, and got up. I finished my journal entry from yesterday. I ate a peppermint patty to get the medicinal taste out of my mouth. I also opened a new bottle of water.

Ate 2 slices of pizza for lunch, half a sleeve of crackers for dinner. Drank 2-3 bottles of water. Went to bed around midnight.

Day One

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:15:57 GMT

Woke up around 5 am, went to the other room and read for a bit. Laid back down around 7, but did not fall asleep. Sir and I got up at 8. He got ready for work, I got dressed and we went outside for a walk. Only walked for about 15 minutes before friction became uncomfortable and I headed back inside. I'm glad its cool out.

Came back inside, ate a peppermint patty to get the Lunesta taste out of my mouth. Opened a bottle of water. Need to up my intake to 4 a day. I've only been drinking one or two.

The elimination of regular soda from my diet has already caused an improvement, as I've lost a few pounds. Of course this might be off-set by the box of candy Sir's mom just sent = / I have no self control. That's something I should work on.

Mood wise, I've found the zoloft makes me much less irritable. I tend not to snap over small things as much, like Sir coming home late from work, or driving down roads I don't recognize. It hasn't done much to cheer me up though, or make me less...paranoid/anxious. Yesterday my dose was doubled, so hopefully that will help.

Lately I've been feeling like the only reason I'm here is to keep my family from being sad if I was gone.

At 3 PM I got pretty sick. Lightheadedness, dizziness and nausea. I laid down, which lead to me falling asleep sometime after 3. I briefly woke sometime around 6, but was still fairly sick and fell back asleep. I got up at 8. We ate dinner, watched some TV. I took my medication (100mg Zoloft, 3mg Lunesta) at 11:30, and went to bed at 12. We were intimate. I fell asleep sometime after 2am.

I drank two bottles of water, ate cheese and crackers for lunch, and 2.5 busicuits from KFC for dinner. I had some various other candy sent by Sir's mother.

Requirements

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:06:07 GMT

The doctor gave me a new list of requirements yesterday. I'm going to try to keep track of them, and note my progress here.

-Get up at the same time each morning. if I wake up early, do not go back to sleep. Go outside for a thirty minute walk as soon as I get up AND it's light outside.
-Start a bedtime ritual. Take medication, brush teeth, possibly take a shower if its relaxing, read for a bit. After 30 minutes, go into a dark, quiet, cool room and fall asleep. If partner snores, sleep in a separate room. (I know I won't follow that last little bit. Probably should have talked about it more, but I was too tired).
-Get the book Say Goodnight to Insomnia, and read it.
-Eliminate as much caffeine as possible from my diet.
-Start exercising as soon as possible.
-Eat better.