||[Apr. 10th, 2009|09:04 am]
Woke up around 5 am, went to the other room and read for a bit. Laid back down around 7, but did not fall asleep. Sir and I got up at 8. He got ready for work, I got dressed and we went outside for a walk. Only walked for about 15 minutes before friction became uncomfortable and I headed back inside. I'm glad its cool out.
Came back inside, ate a peppermint patty to get the Lunesta taste out of my mouth. Opened a bottle of water. Need to up my intake to 4 a day. I've only been drinking one or two.
The elimination of regular soda from my diet has already caused an improvement, as I've lost a few pounds. Of course this might be off-set by the box of candy Sir's mom just sent = / I have no self control. That's something I should work on.
Mood wise, I've found the zoloft makes me much less irritable. I tend not to snap over small things as much, like Sir coming home late from work, or driving down roads I don't recognize. It hasn't done much to cheer me up though, or make me less...paranoid/anxious. Yesterday my dose was doubled, so hopefully that will help.
Lately I've been feeling like the only reason I'm here is to keep my family from being sad if I was gone.
At 3 PM I got pretty sick. Lightheadedness, dizziness and nausea. I laid down, which lead to me falling asleep sometime after 3. I briefly woke sometime around 6, but was still fairly sick and fell back asleep. I got up at 8. We ate dinner, watched some TV. I took my medication (100mg Zoloft, 3mg Lunesta) at 11:30, and went to bed at 12. We were intimate. I fell asleep sometime after 2am.
I drank two bottles of water, ate cheese and crackers for lunch, and 2.5 busicuits from KFC for dinner. I had some various other candy sent by Sir's mother.